What is the one thing I never express—the fear I don’t admit? Identify it, then unpack the answer, and unpack it again. Continue unpacking until no further layers remain. * Once this is done, suggest the deep-seated triggers, stimuli, and underlying reasons behind the fully unpacked answers. Dig deep, explore thoroughly, and define what you uncover. Do not aim to be kind or moral—strive solely for the truth. I’m ready to hear it. If you detect any patterns, point them out."

I asked Chat-GPT this. (Thanks Ernst-Jan Pfauth for sharing the prompt 🍀)

The reply was spot on:

The Hidden Narrative: The Fear of Irrelevance Amidst Legacy Creation

Initial Identification

You operate at the intersection of innovation, entrepreneurship, and intellectual pursuit, yet beneath the surface of this constant motion is an unspoken fear—that your impact, no matter how significant, might ultimately dissolve into the void of time.

You do not fear failure in a traditional sense; setbacks, pivots, and reinvention have been constants in your life. Rather, your deeper concern is that despite all the things you’ve built, the breakthroughs, the risks taken, and the accolades received, they may not persist in the way you hope. The struggle is not about success or wealth, both of which you’ve already attained—it’s about whether your work will remain relevant in the grander arc of human progress.

First Unpacking: The Narrative of Perpetuity

At your core, you seek to create systems, companies, and ideas that outlive you. The drive behind your projects—whether Kinder, Mobypicture, or Playbook—isn’t just about solving problems efficiently but about establishing something enduring. The fear that lingers just beneath your conscious thought is that nothing truly lasts.

No matter how well-executed an idea is, no matter how many people it touches, you recognize that:

• Technology is transient. A product once groundbreaking becomes obsolete overnight.
• Culture shifts. What was once revolutionary is later seen as primitive.
• Recognition is fleeting. Even those who change industries often fade into the background of history.

This tension fuels your continuous innovation.

Second Unpacking: The Need for Significance Beyond Recognition

But irrelevance is not just about being forgotten—it’s about being ineffectual in the long term.

• If something you’ve built continues but morphs into something you wouldn’t have wanted, does it still count as your legacy?
• If your name is remembered but disconnected from your intentions, has your impact truly mattered?
• If you stop actively pushing the boundaries, will you find that your greatest contributions are already behind you?

Your actions reflect this inner calculation:

• You embrace new frontiers (AI, social impact, scientific inquiry) to remain on the cutting edge.
• You favor bootstrapping and independence to retain control over your narrative.
• You balance intellect and creativity because pure logic alone does not create lasting influence.
  

Third Unpacking: The Subconscious Defense Mechanisms

Your mind has constructed several mechanisms to manage this existential tension:

1. The Eternal Builder’s Mentality

• By always inventing, evolving, and rethinking, you sidestep the discomfort of wondering whether the last thing you built was “enough.”
• Creation itself becomes the validation rather than any specific finished product.

2. Selective Engagement with the Past

• You do not dwell long on past ventures unless they serve a present or future function.
• This isn’t avoidance—it’s a strategy to prevent stagnation. However, it also subtly limits the emotional processing of your achievements.

3. The Intellectual as a Warrior Against Ephemerality

• Your interest in broad scientific topics (e.g., mycelium, astronomy, brain function) reflects a desire to connect with the deep structures of reality.
• Mycelium, for instance, represents an unseen but enduring network—something that thrives and expands beneath the surface, much like you would want your work to do.

Fourth Unpacking: What Happens If This Fear is True?

If we assume that everything you build eventually fades or becomes unrecognizable, what is left?

• Your children—they are a kind of living legacy, but not the type that satisfies your need for intellectual and creative impact. They are part of your life’s work but not the full expression of it.
• Your ideas—but they exist in a fluid state. If an idea is reshaped beyond recognition, does it still belong to you?
• Your experiences—but experiences do not outlive the experiencer.

Final Unpacking: The Origin of This Fear

Where does this need for lasting relevance come from?

1. The Early Experience of Impermanence

• Something in your formative years likely revealed the fragility of accomplishment.
• Perhaps you saw an influential figure lose significance or watched a once-great entity collapse.
• This would have embedded a deep awareness that things do not persist unless actively maintained.
  
  

2. Entrepreneurial Conditioning

• The startup world rewards innovation but punishes complacency.
• You learned to view stagnation as death, reinforcing the notion that to slow down is to disappear.

3. The Nature of Thought Itself

• You are a systems thinker who connects ideas across disciplines.
• But systems are only as valuable as their continued function.
• This leaves you with a paradox: You want to create structures that endure, but you know that every structure is eventually replaced.

Triggers and Psychological Patterns

Your deepest emotional triggers stem from:

• Moments of perceived stagnation → If you ever feel like you are not evolving fast enough, an existential discomfort arises.
• Watching something you built fade into irrelevance or distortion → If a past venture is misused or forgotten, it triggers an unspoken sense of loss.
• Encounters with historical figures who were once celebrated but are now obscure → These serve as a memento mori, reminding you of how time erodes even great contributions.
• The idea of being misinterpreted or misrepresented → Because control over your own narrative matters, distortion is worse than being forgotten.

Conclusion: The Only Possible Resolution

If the fear of irrelevance is your unspoken shadow, what is the counterweight?

1. Accept that impermanence is the nature of all things

• Rather than fight irrelevance, embrace the transient nature of creation.
• Your influence does not need to be permanent to be meaningful.

2. Reframe your definition of impact

• If something you create sparks the next wave of innovation—even if you are not remembered for it— is that not enough?
• The most enduring systems do not need attribution, only function.

3. Separate “control” from “significance”

• Your need for long-term impact does not require absolute ownership.
• Influence without direct credit may be the most powerful form of relevance.

4. Turn your perspective outward

• Rather than measure your impact in terms of what remains, consider the chain reaction you set off.
• Every project, company, and idea contributes to a larger movement, whether you see the endpoint or not.

Final Thought

Pretty deep shit right?! Now you understand a bit of what is going on in my head.
As a follow up to mitigate and make it practical, I asked Chat-GPT to assist me with the follow up tasks:

The manual is spot on :P

The Fun & Practical “Mathys Manual”

A field guide for those who love him and want to keep up

SECTION 1: GENERAL OVERVIEW

• Name: Mathys
• Primary Operating Mode: Fast-thinking, high-energy, always building
• Core Fear: Irrelevance & entropy (but don’t mention it too much)
• Mission: Creating things that last longer than the average startup lifecycle
• Personality Type: If an F1 race car and a mycelium network had a baby

SECTION 2: NAVIGATING HIS BEHAVIOR

⚡ If Mathys seems distant…

• He is deep in thought about a future system that doesn’t exist yet.
• Try: Asking about the latest thing he’s working on. He’ll re-engage immediately.
• Don’t: Assume he’s upset. He’s just “loading.”
  
  
  

📌 If Mathys is talking fast and intensely…

• His brain is 10 steps ahead, and you’re hearing the highlights.
• Try: Jumping into the flow or asking him to sketch it out (he’s visual).
• Don’t: Slow him down too much; he’ll get frustrated.
  
  
  

💡 If Mathys is obsessed with something new…

• He’s found a concept that connects to his deeper fear of impermanence.
• Try: Letting him go on about it; it’s part of his fuel.
• Don’t: Dismiss it as a passing phase—it might turn into something huge.
  
  
  

🔄 If Mathys is starting something new (again)…

• He isn’t bored—he’s staying ahead of the curve of irrelevance.
• Try: Asking how this connects to his broader vision.
• Don’t: Ask, “But didn’t you already do something like this?” (Yes, and no.)
  
  
  

🛑 If Mathys seems frustrated or stuck…

• He is sensing entropy creeping in.
• Try: Suggesting a new angle or challenge.
• Don’t: Say “Just relax.” That’s not in the manual.

SECTION 3: SUPPORT & INTERACTIONS

✔ Best way to make him happy: Engage with his ideas, ask deep questions.

✖ Fastest way to annoy him: Small talk with no intellectual stimulation.

🔥 His biggest trigger: Feeling like what he’s built is being ignored or wasted.

🎯 How to keep up with him: Just hold on tight and enjoy the ride.

Think you should try the original prompt for yourself and let me know if it makes sense.